Lisa-Jo over at the Gypsy Mama writes words of beauty and truth that spin across continents and computer screens. She helps us laugh and delight in the world, and the words. On Fridays we write for just five minutes - let our words fly free and clear. Won't you join us?
This week it is about "tired."
Some days I want to take my heart out of its ribcage and
look at it in the palm of my hands. I want to feel it beating, feels its shape
and its scars and all the history it carries.
Some days I am tired of it breaking. I am weary with the
running around and the waiting and the trusting blindly as I wander forward and
the disappointment and the candles lit at noon that seem to give no light. I am
weary with waiting to be full that I run outside, heart in my hands to God and
say, please, won’t you come running to me? Won’t you come find me, and send
your rainclouds to this desert?
And still I hold this heart in my hands and I offer its
words to the world and I wait to know who will hold it, who will know its secrets
and wonder about its stories and who will carry me for a while when I can’t
carry myself.
And still my heart keeps beating. The weary heart beats when
it is empty. The weary heart beats even when it cannot have what it longs for.
The weary heart beats.
The weary heart beats out hope. The weary heart bears the
burden of belief when it’s too heavy for the rest of us. The weary heart pushes
out towards the sunrise.
Love,
Hilary
Thanks so much for sharing this. I think we all feel like that sometimes--just waiting for God to reach out to us. I love your openness and honesty.
ReplyDeletefirst... put your heart right back where you found it...because your heart is so good, so wonderful it should be sought out...so good that Someone has died for your heart...so you put it right back and when someone can find it because they sought it...then you know that you know that person is special.
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He is calling your name, my friend! Only He can carry us through!
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing! (:
We all feel heavy hearts at times, and that is why we need a Savior.
ah, sweet hilary. i just love your heart so much. hang on tight to Him, as i know you are doing. He adores you, you know. and He knows the desires of your heart. keep seeking hard after Him. and in the seeking, you will find all kinds of treasures. and yes, i know you know all of this. but He keeps telling me, "remember." because i so often forget. so i encourage you to "remember." remember His love for you and that He has a plan for you. even in the weary, tired days. He has a plan.
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steph
That was so beautiful. Your words have captured so truly how I feel... Thank you... :)
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